Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Anyways, I have bought some things for the baby. Mostly things I have found on sale or clearance. I like to be prepared. I don't want to all of a sudden be holding a naked baby with nothing to put him in. Bad enough he might not have a name. Hubby thinks I should wait to buy things later. Well today he comes home after a visit to the Harley Davidson shop. I suppose he wanted to google over his dream motorcycle. His dad has a Harley and he thinks he needs one. Well he bought a piggy bank for the baby! He was very excited about it. Almost like if he got his own Harley. So jokingly I said to Rose and Hubby "Let's name the baby Harley". Rose said "No David". She has brought this name up before and we can not figure out where she heard it from. I asked her where she heard it and all she says is "I just like it".
No I won't name my baby Harley Davidson Wynn! Sorry not doing it!
Almost a Wordless Wednesday! My Hubby's cousin and his girlfriend had a baby this week!! A new member in the Wynn Family!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
The little boy I have posted about, Stellan, spent 5.5 weeks in the hospital. He ended up taking a trip to Boston to have surgery. Well good news, he's now on his way home to MN to be with his family. He is doing well. If you are interested in his story it has been on the ABC news and the link to the mother's blog is located on the lower right corner of my blog.
I have been elected Vice President of my local Daycare Association! We enjoyed voting last night as well as a potluck dinner.
I did get an update on Friday about Baby O. It sounded like he was doing better as far as he was looking more alert and was able to wake up on his own and be ready to eat. I have not heard anything since Friday. As of Friday he was still in the hospital. My friend said in her email that on Friday he was looking more like her little son!
Monday, April 27, 2009
Daddy finally got the baby swing up. There wasn't enough room on the big swing for Sweet Baby Girl's baby swing. So Daddy built another swing for it and room for 2 more things! Mommy is just as excited as Sweet Baby Girl.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
However today I have decided that its all going to be what it is. I can't always change the way things are. I can try to make things better but still sometimes its not in my hands. But I have decided to think positive. Everything always works out. I am going to pray for good things and do my best to stay positive for happy endings. I need to remember that my baby has many many weeks yet to turn head down. Maybe he's just being slow because we don't have a name picked out yet!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Please continue to pray for Baby O and his family. Pray for a fast recovery and that they can be home soon as a family. My friend's little girl is almost 3 years old. She is alittle unsure right now with all the changes going on. Since I am home I have told my friend her daughter can always come stay with me. I wish there was more I could do.
I know my friend would be grateful to know everyone is praying for her little boy.
Please pray the doctors and nurses caring for Baby O do the best they can.
Please pray that my friend and her husband are able to be there with their baby boy.
Please pray for the grandparents and other family and friends of Baby O.
Please pray that Baby O is not in any pain.
Please just pray that Baby O is as strong as his Mommy and he will be just fine!
Just please pray for Baby O.
*For privacy reasons I do not want to list names but I know if you take time to pray for Baby O and his family The Man upstairs will know who you are praying for.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
I will say though I have major cravings today. I so badly want the carrot cake I ate back in 1917 when I was nanny. Ok not that long ago but it was years ago. They had the best carrot cake one day and of course I had to try it. My mouth is watering just thinking about it. I had to settle for pumpkin bars from Cub Foods. The carrot cake they had looked like someone sat on it. I also snuck a few Custard filled long johns into my cart and a slice of cake! No I won't eat it all at once but it sure does look good. I am going to need a to go on a major diet once this baby boy arrives.
On a side note: Hubby was taking the big girls for a walk and since Sweet Baby Girl was sleeping I was staying home. As they left I said "Don't get wet", (you could see in the sky it was going to rain). So as I am typing I hear them run back into the house. It did start raining! Rose looked at me and said "Well, we could have at least taken the van on the walk so we didn't get wet"!
Monday, April 20, 2009
The girls saw their biological Grandma. She is a nice person and means well. She loves those girls just like many others. She had great fear when we got the girls that we wouldn't allow her to see them. However both my hubby and I know that family is very important. She is their family. So about once every 3-4 months she comes to town. She stays in a hotel along with her daughter who comes and her other 2 grandchild. So not only do they see Grandma they also get to see their 2 cousins and aunt. The last 2 times she has come we have actually been able to let ourselves enjoy some quiet time and let the girls have a sleep over. The first few times we just weren't ready to give that much trust. Anyways, they have a great time seeing their family. The girls also have a Grandpa that is in another state that they talk with on the phone. He also sends them little presents in the mail. They haven't seen him in a few years and will hopefully see him at Christmas time 2009. That is the plans so far.
Hubby went to drop the girls off and Grandma told him that she has been talking to their birth mom. Not alot is usually said but she will ask if the girls are alright. According to Grandma mom knows that it would be a very hard thing for the girls if she came back right now. Hello, of course it would be hard. It will be at any point. According to Grandma mom will come back in about 3 years.
3 years? What does that mean for them? What does that mean for me? My hubby? What does that mean for Sweet Baby Girl who only knows home with her big sisters? The dancer will be about 10 years old and Rose will be about 8. I will not lie about my biggest fear. We all have fears. My biggest fear is that something will happen to my hubby and their birth mom will get those girls back. Do you know what that would do to me? Do you know what that would do to them? Yes, we have a paper that states both hubby and I have custody and if anything happens to hubby they are mine. But it also states below that the Birth mom has the right to go to the courts and seek custody or whatever she may want to try for. Who says that won't happen? Who says the judge will be on my side? Will I even have it in me to fight. God knows I would do what I could.
They are just as much my girls as hers. Aren't they? I am the one who has to tell The Dancer it is ok to miss her mom. I am the one who has to tell her when she cries that her mom misses her to. I am the one who has to tell her that her Mom felt she was better here with her dad and I. I am the one who has to comfort Rose when the little boy on the bus picks on her.
The Dancer is a sweetheart to everyone. She is the type of person who will forget and forgive her birth mom much faster than she should. I am not in anyway saying she shouldn't know her but shouldn't there be some anger? Some hurt? Some confusion? Not only did their mom leave them she took their half sister with her. They have missed out on over a year with her.
The Dancer has had a very rough week when it comes to bedtimes. She knew her Grandma was coming and we think that thinking of Grandma and understanding that is her mom's mom that it makes it hard for her to cope with everything. It brings up things that she can remember. Rose does not say too much. Rose usually talks about it when The Dancer does. I think being Rose is younger she is forgetting her some. She doesn't remember as much as The Dancer.
3 years? What if its sooner? What if its longer? There are so many what ifs. Can I happily just wish and pray for her to never come back? But then what is that doing? She is the women who gave birth to them. They do have a right to know her but in what way?
The Grandma gave them a present that their birth mom sent for them. It was a box of Bendaroos (they advertise them on tv and we told the girls we would only buy them if we found them in the store. They are cheap and not worth it). Anyways, she also sent them things at Christmas. What is the reason for this? Is she trying to buy their love? Sending them gift is not going to make life better for them.
There are just alot of what ifs. Things that we can only prepare ourselves for when they happen. I also fear that no matter what those girls will in some way suffer. They are so well taken care of here. They are so very spoiled by not only hubby and I but our families. They are so loved. But they will always have to deal with the fact that their birth mom left them.
I will always have to deal with the fact that she may come back.
Friday, April 17, 2009
PS for those who have checked my blog more than once today looking for this post I got to it as soon as I could. Hubby and I also enjoyed a quiet lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings! Not too often we get to go without the kiddos.
Rose and The Dancer: Girl
Grandma R: Boy
Auntie M: She thinks girl because she feels we'll end up with all girls but thinks boy because my tummy looks different than with Sweet Baby Girl. I am carrying different this time. I am more rounded than the last time.
I go in today at 11am! Then out to lunch! I can't wait. I am already hungry!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Hubby is so far ok with the idea. He has to be since he is the babysitter when I have my 2 meetings each month (we get the summer off)! He's done great with the 3 girls when I am gone and its great for me to also get out of the house. We'll see how he does with 4 kids come fall!
These two pictures where taken at Easter. I didn't get very excited family members when I said I wanted a family picture. I also think we were standing in the sun. After they were taken I realized nobody stood in front of me to hide my very large tummy. I tried to get them to re-take the picture but my brothers decided to leave so that couldn't happen. Oh well. Just remember when looking at them I AM PREGNANT and HUGE!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
The bus came and Rose asked me to go with her. I walked her to the bus and she started to cry. I picked her up and told her if she cried I would cry. That is the same thing my mom used to say to me when I was little and was upset. After I said it I couldn't believe I did. I am like my mother!
I spoke to the driver and she had Rose sit in the front by a little girl who I usually see wave to me each day Rose gets picked up. I felt terrible having her get on the bus with tears. I walked away and I cried to. No mother wants their child to be afraid to ride the bus to school. I am still struggling with the fact I can not drive her like some of the other mothers can do. I am thankful I am home with her and the other girls when they need me home. I am just sad I can not drive them to school or go to school and help in their classrooms. I do know I need to be thankful that I spend most of their time with them. I know there are alot of parents who don't get that chance. I am just struggling with this. Hopefully in time it will pass.
Rose will get off the bus at 3:15 and I will make sure I am there waiting for her!
But now I need to come to terms that I am like my mother!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Friday morning we had a great continental breakfast at the hotel. We went to Babys R Us and saw tons of cute things. The baby clothes there are to die for! However I wasn't able to buy the baby any since I don't know what it is. I did however pick up one little outfit for Sweet Baby Girl for next winter. I love clearance. Oh and a girls outfit just in case its another girl or my sister has a girl. Its jeans and a flowery top for $3.00! Can't turn down a deal like that! We decided to wait to purchase our double stroller like we had first planned to do. I just don't think I want to spend as much as they want so I will keep looking around to see if there is something I like better.
We headed out to find a hobby shop that Hubby wanted to find. However we took a wrong turn. We stopped at Starbucks and ended up in a small fender bender. My Hubby was driving and went to back out and hit an older lady driving a 2003 station wagon. He said he looked and didn't see anyone and is thinking because her car sits lower to the ground that is why he didn't see her. Everyone is ok! That is the main thing. Our wonderful 2008 van does however have a scratch on it. Hubby felt we got the worst of the damage.
After getting over the fender bender and being thankful it didn't happen on the road we headed to Chucky E Cheese. The girls loved it. They played games and ate more pizza than I expected.
We didn't get home until about 9:30pm Friday night and Sweet Baby Girl was so happy to be home and out of the van she scooted all around the living room. She scooted further than she ever has!
I will post pictures later. Just got a call my little brother M got in trouble. I must get details. Thankfully he called his other sister because I don't think I would be as nice about it as she is being. Kids these days!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Thanks to TV advertisements we hear about Chucky Cheese all the time. I have been there enough to know I don't care for their pizza but the girls want to go so badly (when I worked as a Nanny we went there alot). They don't know it yet but we will take them there tomorrow for supper when we leave for home. We'll let them swim tonight when we get to the hotel around 8pm! It will be a late night but we can sleep in tomorrow. Ok maybe not we'll all be in one little room. It was a good idea though. We will bumb around the cities area tomorrow. My Husband of course has a fish shop he wants to visit (of course him main reason for the little trip).
Hopefully we can make it home Friday night in time for 8:30pm bedtimes. Saturday morning we have an Easter party to go to at Rose's school. Sunday we are headed to eat breakfast with Hubby's dad at his church and then to my grandparents for Easter Dinner. Its going to be a busy weekend.
Oh I am so excited Sweet Baby Girl is learning knew things but I am also so sad. That means she is growing up. Way too fast. She has started to learn how to blow kisses. Its so funny though. She more so licks her hand! But she is trying to blow a kiss!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Now next Friday just happens to be April 17, 2009. If you have a good memory that is the day of my dates! My 1st date is with the Ultrasound tech. and the second was to be with my Hubby for lunch. So we had to change the appt. from 10am until 11am and Hubby will have to take a half day at work. So all in all it will work out but of course all days to go back to work.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
The only not so good news at my appt. was she said something about 18 weeks and 5 days along. I am hoping she was just looking at the wrong thing because my calender says 20 weeks! I will wait and see on the 17th what my ultrasound shows for my due date.
Monday, April 6, 2009
On another note- I am 20 weeks pregnant today! So I am half way there. I am excited and also nervous. Last night I went to take a bubble bath and I noticed my ankles have turned ugly. They were very swollen. They did this with Sweet Baby Girl but I don't think it was until about 30 weeks. That is also when I had orders from my Doctor to take it easy and put my feet up all day. I have a doctors apt. this afternoon and I am really hoping for the best. There are a few changes I can make during the day to accommodate but I can not take 20 weeks off. I am a mother. We do not get days off! The daycare kids love playing doctor so I can lay on the couch and be the sick one and they won't know I have to be lazy! And who knows maybe the doctor won't see concern yet.
Please pray for my ankles. Pray that they don't scare my doctor right out of the exam room. They are pretty ugly right now!
Friday, April 3, 2009
We got our local summer recreation booklet in the mail and there is something in it I would like each of my kids to do. But because of different ages they are at different times/ different days of the week. I can't get them there. One is a toddler class I would so love to take with my Sweet Baby Girl. The prices are actually reasonable. But its once a week for 6 weeks. If I hire a sub it would cost me $120 extra to take the class. That is also only if I leave at the last minute and walk out as its ending so I don't go over 2 hours a time for the sub. This is depressing me terribly. That wouldn't include the cost of the classes for each one of the girls or a sub for my daycare to get the other two girls to their event. So in the end it would cost me a fortune.
I am trying hard to remind myself that I could be sitting in a small office with no windows and be making alot of money but it wouldn't solve my problem. My kids would be stuck at daycare and still wouldn't be able to attend special things. I could have become a lawyer with too much work to do and pay a nanny to take care of my children. But then I would probably have more problems to think about.
I know there are things I can do with my children on the weekends but that doesn't solve the fact that Toddler Fun, Soccer and Day Camp are during the week and during the day. To me its depressing I can not do these things with my children.
I know in the end I need to be thankful for the time I do get with them and for the things we do get to do. Its just in the back of mind this week what we miss out on. To me its depressing.