the world we live in

So lastnight Rose and I went to the grocery store. We needed to get some milk and a few other things. As I was putting groceries in the van I noticed a lady backed out of her parking spot and stopped. She got out and went to right on the back of a van. Yes, we've all done that WASH ME PLEASE thing. Well, no that is not what this lady wrote. She wrote on that van LEARN HOW TO DRIVE A**. Now I understand the lady was not parked the greatest but maybe she had a reason for the way she parked. Maybe she was one of the many who got laid off yesterday from a job she has had for years. Maybe she just lost a loved one. Maybe she was just having a rough day. I just felt really bad for the lady who came out to get into that van with such a message. Sometimes we need to think about things in our head and not really say them or spell them out. So maybe a different day I would have found it to be funny. My hubby found it funny he almost fell off his chair when I told him. This is the world I am raising my kids in and I would like it to be a better place.

Make Over Needed

Yes, I do need a make over but even worse so does my laundry room. I was working on laundry again and realized how embarrassing my laundry room is. There are clothes every where. I really need to learn some organizational skills. I will show you a few pictures but please make sure you are sitting down before you look at them. These are all clean clothes. They are mostly clothes that at least one of my girls has worn at one time and is just sitting there waiting for the next one to wear them.

Now just so that you know: If you ever decide to come over while I am gone and give my laudry room a make over, please this is what I want!

wordless wednesday

Perfect for a little girl

I went with my mom this weekend to a used furniture shop. I had gotten 2 matching dressers there before and have really liked many other pieces the lady has had for sale. So when we got there on Saturday I right away fell in love with a dresser and headboard for a twin bed. Sweet Baby Girl was with us and right away she told me she wanted it for her birthday! We barely said we liked it and the lady was there right away agreeing with us how cute it was and offered to give us $30 off!! Who doesn't like a bargain? So of course after asking my mother if I could tell my husband she bought it for Sweet Baby Girl I was loading it in my van! Its just perfect for a little girl!

Its already in her room and its getting used! She just had to have her present alittle earlier than her actual birthday!

Liver and Onions!

"I think you ate too many cookies and that's why your tummy is growing."

"Thanks Rose."

She is a sweetheart though. I wasn't feeling well last night and she told me to lay on the couch. She got me a blanket and a stuffed bunny. I couldn't hardly say no even though I hate stuffed animals. Then when she was having a bedtime snack she kept telling me I needed to have some as well. I knew by the way I felt it was best to not eat anything. She kept arguing with me about eating with her. She was having goldfish crackers. I kept telling her no and she kept telling me I needed just one. So finally I looked at her and said "Rose do you want liver and onions for lunch and supper tomorrow?" She looked at me like I was dumb "Umm, No", She said. I then looked at her and said "Ok, then mom doesn't want any stinkin goldfish". Finally she left me alone!

I have a strange feeling this baby growing inside me is going to be a handful! I have been more sick these past few weeks then I had been the whole time I was pregnant with Sweet Baby Girl. Hmm, maybe it will be twins!

Sweet Baby Girl

I don't think she can get any cuter!

Our family trip

Here is a short video of pictures from out big weekend getaway. We left Saturday morning and went to the Mall of America with the girls. We surprised them and took them to a hotel. They had so much fun. It was good to get away for the weekend but its also nice to be back home.
The girls got to also see Sponge Bob. I am not a big fan of Sponge Bob but I did allow them to go get their picture taken with him. Rose snuck up around the corner and said "Boo" to him. I thought she would chicken out and be too scared but she surprised me. The Dancer really enjoyed the roller coaster ride at the Mall. It even went upside down. We tried doing some swimming at the hotel but the water was very cold. I had planned to just get my feet alittle wet but The Dancer took a step too far out and needed my help getting back to were she could touch bottom. It was alittle scary and I ended up wet up to my chin! So much for mom not swimming. Maybe some day we we'll venture out and go somewhere further than a few hours away from home!

Its official!

Its official my husband has grey hair! Maybe its because he's stuck in a house full of girls. Even the daycare kids are girls! You can't really tell there's grey hairs unless you get close but I know they are there. We should maybe just keep this between you and me. When you see him next though feel free to get real close and look for the grey!

Minnesota Winter

WINTER Poem

It's winter in Minnesota And the gentle breezes

blow Seventy miles an hour At thirty-five below.

Oh, how I love Minnesota

When the snow's up to your butt

You take a breath of winter

And your nose gets frozen shut.

Yes, the weather here is wonderful

So I guess I'll hang around

I could never leave Minnesota

I'm frozen to the ground!

anonymous

The weather today in my area: Fair
Feels Like: -25°
Barometer: 30.59 in and steady
Humidity: 68%
Visibility: 9 mi
Dewpoint: -32°
Wind: CALM
Sunrise: 7:56 am
Sunset: 4:58 pm -26°
High: -6° Low: -24°

Let's tell our secret!

So I have a secret I am sure you are just going to love! However if I tell you then you also need to keep it a secret. We haven't told our girls yet. So if you can keep a secret please do read on!

The Wynn family is expecting a baby! Baby Wynn boy or girl will be arriving in late August. Well, that's what the plan is so far. Baby Wynn wasn't as planned as Sweet Baby girl so I don't think my due date is August 31. But that's what the doctor says so far. I will go in to see my doctor again Feb. 5. I will actually have an ultrasound that day as well. I am hoping that will better tell us when my due date is. I do know its going to be a hot hot summer!

And yes to my Auntie R I did know on Christmas and when you told me it was time for another one I felt really bad not spillin the beans. We had just found out 2 days before Christmas.

Not sure what to call it

One year ago on December 26 my hubby and I went to see a man at the Counseling Center located inside our hospital. We talked to him about The Dancer and Rose. They had at the time just started living with us full time. We were concerned that with all the changes and their mom leaving they would need someone to talk to other than us. I guess you could say a "Professional". Someone with a big degree hanging on the wall. The man we spoke to that day listened to us for about an hour. He told us he felt with the girls being so young that there was no need for them to see anyone. No need for them to speak their mind and feelings. They would live a happy life as long as my husband and I went on having a happy marriage and gave the girls lots of love. Ok loving those girls is not hard to do. Not at all.

So as the year went on things seemed to be ok at times. There were many nights that The Dancer would cry at bedtime because she missed her mom or more often that she missed her sister (half sister who is still with mom. She was about 8-9 months when they last saw her). As the months pasted the crying at night seemed to be less and less often. Things seemed ok. Still in the back of our minds we wondered if we were doing the right thing as far as them speaking to someone about what happen.

Well when we spoke to Rose's preschool at the begining of the year we mentioned what had happened briefly and that it had been awhile since she had seen her birth mom. The teacher thanked us for telling her. Then at conferences the teacher brought it up that Rose was talking about another mom. The teacher told hubby at conferences she didn't know what Rose was talking about (So much for making note of what we had told her when we met with her in the 1st place). Then we have conferences with The Dancer's teacher. It took us longer to walk down to the school then the actually meeting with the teacher (a story in itself). Dancer's teacher brought it up also that she was talking about another mom and that she could go see her when she was older. Teacher had no idea what Dancer was talking about even though at Open House I myself told the teacher the situation.

So we were back at square one trying to decide if the girls needed to talk to someone. A counselor, therapist, a professional of some kind. What do you call it? What do you tell a child when they are going to an appointment? So after many phone calls I finally found a place that would even talk to children as young as Rose and the Dancer. I made them an appointment. Hated the idea of it but felt they would go and we'd see what happens.

So last week at supper we told the girls that the next day they would go see Lady R. They would get some time with her to play and become friends. We told the girls when they are there they can talk about things they want to. If there is something they want to talk about that they don't want to share with us they can tell Lady R. We also told them if they wanted to talk about their other mom they could.

Well this is what we got-

Rose, "I don't wanna talk about her".

Dancer, "Oh so like if something is bothering us we can talk about that. That sounds ok".

So hubby happen to be the one to take them. He comes home all in a tiss that the place was dirty and smelly. He said Lady R did not give a very good first impression and it looked like she hadn't showered in over a week. His response to their first appointment was he don't think they need to go.

Awe how does a parent know in this situation what the right thing to do is? I am just irritated. Maybe I am the one who needs therapy or whatever we should call it because I am one pissed off person about this whole situation.

I am mad their birth mother did this to them.
I am mad their birth mother took their half sister and is not allowing them to grow with her and build a friendship with her.
I am mad I took out a loan to pay for adoption papers and lawyer fees that she has yet to sign and return. I don't get to give back my loan because she changed her mind.
I am mad that we got a letter in the mail 2 weeks ago stating that the birth mother legally still has custody of both girls.
I am mad that she could show up tomorrow and try and take them back.
I am just mad.

As far as our next step I don't know that either. I guess we pray for the best. We were told by the Guardian at Litem (lady who worked with us all in trying to determine the best place for the girls to live- before birth mom left) that her report would go into the courts and we would be granted full custody. If the birth mom came back she would need to get a lawyer and go through the court system for any rights. However that is not what the letter stated from the lawyer 2 weeks ago. This is all a mess. Until its figured out this was my therapy session! The girls have another one Feb. 4. I was told already by hubby that I am taking them so I can check the place out.

She's 5!

Happy Birthday to our Rose. Rose turned 5 over the weekend. She had a great a party and yesterday we took her out to lunch.

Those girls and their TV

Look at these two glued to the TV. Santa could have skipped his stop at our house this year. They wouldn't have even noticed. They didn't even notice I took their picture!

This was taken during Christmas break. They snuck into the living room after I had been watching a show and I found them watching Entertainment Tonight! Hmm, ya think they were really interested in the REAL OR RUMORS for the day.

Rose has the blanket pulled up over her mouth so I can't see her sucking on her finger. She thinks she is sneaky.

The other night after doing dishes I came into the living room and Hubby and Dancer were watching tv. Dancer had a blanket and pillow and was pulling them up over her eyes. I asked her what she was doing.

"Well its scary"

"Then don't watch it, we have toys in our house"!

They will sit and watch anything if the tv is on. I think sometimes we should get rid of it. Maybe even become Amish!

back to work

My vacation is over. I enjoyed my two weeks off and now its time to get back into a routine. I am up on time and just waiting for Children to arrive hungry for breakfast! I have a feeling today will be a long day though. I have an ad in the local paper to try and get one more daycare child. Hopefully I will at least get some calls today.

The Dancer goes back to school today and Rose will go to preschool tomorrow.

New Year

Happy New Year from our home to yours!!

We were hoping to ring in the New Year by winning the lottery but somehow we forgot to buy a ticket. So that didn't happen. It was a good thought though.

We enjoyed the day by visiting with Grandma R at her Cafe and home. We had lunch there. We got home about 6:30pm and I allowed the girls to make their own sub sandwiches for a light supper. We left the girls stay up until about 10:15pm!

Today looks like its going to be a lazy day around the house.

I hope everyone has a magical New Years!

Miracles do happen!