Friday, February 26, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
I have spent the last few days overly exhausted. I did what I thought sounded like a good idea. I took on a daycare child with hours that are rather early for my liking. So I am exhausted. However time does not stop for those of us who are tired. The clock keeps ticking and we need to tick right along with it. The laundry keeps piling up even if we are tired. Your almost 2 year old will wake up at 4:15 sometimes even if you are tired. Your infant might not ever sleep thru the night. Don't get me wrong I love who I am and I love being a mother. But sometimes even when we are so tired we need to think about situations before we say things. After we say it, it might be too late to think about it.
Jade has been invited to a birthday party Friday night. Its a sleepover at the waterpark. How fun for 2nd graders. However this makes me nervous. The child having the birthday has recently had to deal with the loss of her mother. No her mom did not pass away. She got up and left. She left her children. I don't know the whole story. Its not my business to know the whole story. What I do know is that grandma is in charge of this party. I also know that this girl has lied to her friends. She has told Jade and others that her mother went walking in a garden and got bit by a gardner snake and died.
We all have our way of dealing with loss. Whatever kind it might be. But to lie to your friends is not right. I know they are only in second grade but usually your friends can help you thru the tough times. They can sit with you at lunch when you are sad, they can make laugh when they tease you about a cute boy, they can give you a hug when you feel lonely.
I had a friend who lied in high school so bad that she started to forget her own lies!
Anyways, I really can not tollerate lying. Its just one of my things. It upsets me this girl lied to Jade. However I do understand she is going thru a rough time. So we decided to allow Jade to go to the party but we will pick her up at 9pm (she isn't spending the night mainly because both hubby and I work Saturday morning).
This morning Jade was talking about her friend. She started to tell me the whole gardner snake story, again. I tried to tell her that her friend's mom did not die. I tried to explain she just said that because she was upset. Of course though a 2nd grader belives their friends over their mom, right?
Then I did what I probably shouldn't have done. I was tired of arguing. I didn't think Jade should really think she died.
I said, "Jade her mom left her just like your mom left".
It just hit me a few hours ago what I really said to her. I don't think that was the right thing to say at the very moment. I could have said "Jade my underwear are pink". She would have laughed and said "Mamma". We would have went on with our day. There would have been no more aguring about what happen to who.
I have wondered for the last few hours if what I said hurt Jade more than she is probably already hurting. Does she think about her mom everyday? Did I make her think about her today when maybe she didn't want to. Did it maybe not bother her at all?
I have also spent the last few hours feeling like a terrible mother.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
But on another note.... most of you know I am Catholic. My children (yes, all 4) are baptized Catholic. Its lent season. Last year the big girls and I gave up gum for the lent season. This has worked really well for me. I mastered it during lent. Since then I had only chewed one piece until yesterday when I had to chew one more so I could get the tooth paste cover out of the drain that Abby dropped. Anyways, Its lent season again so I thought wow the gum thing worked even after lent was over. Lets try giving up Chocolate!
Wow, was that a dumb pick. My hubby bought chocolate cake last Friday night. I tried to say no but it hurt. I couldn't do it. And now I have brownies in the oven and its not even 8AM. So much for no more Chocolate!
A house is not a home without love, kids and chocolate!
Oh and the other thing, no meat on Fridays is just down right torchure. We should get to pick one day a week to skip meat. Why Fridays? I don't mind certain kinds of fish, shrimp and I even do enjoy crab legs. However I do not get hungry for them on Fridays! Today I am hungry for a tuna sandwich. But now if I have that today, what will I put on Friday's menu?
Maybe I will feel better after a warm brownie!
Monday, February 22, 2010
Its been over 2 years as most of you know since we've had Jade and Abby full time. We are still waiting for a court date to make it all finalized. Of course for child support you get one right away. This helps the county from having to help people. Hubby had that back in October to only find out their birth mom lives off the state she lives in. Ok, no good for us. But to get this finalized we have to wait how long? This is just down right insane. I am not a happy person. I hate the way the system works. We call and they tell us to call the Gaurdian at litem. Why? We no longer have one. So we call the old one. She tells us she submitted the papers to the court but will submit them again. She tells us to give it up to 3 months. Ok so we wait and nothing happens. How long do we play this game?
I also just told hubby he should call there again and question why we haven't gotten a court date. Then I get a phone call today from the tax guy to tell me someone already claimed ABBY. Excuse me? What happen? What does that mean for us?
That means to us alot of BS. Alot of messing around. Now we have to mail in our taxes with a cover letter exlpaining we have the right to claim her.
In late summer both parites will be notified by the IRS (everyone's bestfriend) to find out who lied on their taxes.
Now as some of my readers who are daycare providers or other business owners you don't just get a w-2 and turn that into your tax person. You have billions of recipts you have saved that are for business things, you have all your personal recipts (at least I do). I just pray this doesn't turn into some type of audit. The last thing I want is IRS people here digging through my very unorganized paperwork system.
I have to say when I heard that someone else claimed Abby I felt robbed of her Social Security number. I am now starting to think both her and Jade should just get new numbers (is that possible). She is my daughter. She has been for 2 years and I have every right to claim her as mine!
SHE IS MY DAUGHTER!
We wanted to get 2 year old pictures and 6 month pictures taken of the 2 little ones next weekend.
We were still trying to decide if the big girls were getting pictures or not.
Now we have a black and blue face.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Well the other day I found that shutterfly has website available. So I gave it a try. You can check it out at Amy's Shining Stars Daycare. Hopefully that will work and link you right to my new website. It could maybe use come TLC but I think its a start!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
I will get my microwave though for above the stove and this will allow us to finish our basement so that we can use it for our family and some for our daycare. Next year I will get my kitchen! I can wait.
A funky kitchen is better than no kitchen! And as soon as that basment is done that art easel is going down there and will be out of my funky kitchen!
Hey do you see that cute black and red basket by the stove. ANOTHER DEAL!! Only $2.50 at Wal-Mart. After Valentine's day special. Love it. Its holding some cute clearanced out paper plates with hearts on it and some matching clearanced out napkins!
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Then once that was kind of in place I decided we needed one for on the wall above it! Of course I got it but it was the worst trip back to Menards ever (Maddison was crabby and cried the whole time).
I have 3 different cupboards in my kitchen now and 2 different counter tops! Oh well it works for now. Plan it to some day (hopefully soon) fix that. We figured if it doesn't work to keep the new cupboards when we re-do our kitchen we will move them to the laundry room!
The one picture is me sanding down the wall. Yes, my shirt is over my nose! It smelled. Our walls are texured (not from us but previous owners) so it needed to be sanding for the new cupboard to fit flush with the wall. I think I almost have hubby convinced that since our hoodvent above the stove is off-white and all our appliances are white we should just replace it with a microwave! That would clear up alot more space on the counter! He's almost ready to tackle that I think. I think I need Jade to remind him how much work I do! We did try to look at them the last time we were at Menards but Maddison did not allow us more than a minute or two.
When the job was done I couldn't belive how much dust it made. I had to clean and wipe down the whole kitchen. My family came to town Sunday night for supper so they stopped over to help hubby hold the wall cabinet up to make sure it got lined up right with the other cabinet.
Monday, February 15, 2010
(I didn't end up with 11 kids after all. I had to send a daycare family home early because one of them was running a fever. So I had my 4 kiddos, 2 respite care kids and Jade's 3 birthday friends)
Friday, February 12, 2010
Yes, Mason's outfit is getting a bit too short. He is growing so fast. I have noticed this week that all the kiddos are growing. Abby's skirts for school are getting too short when she bends over! I have cleaned a few pairs of pants out of Maddison's drawer this week.
No more time to sit. Lots of stuff to do. Please think of me and let's all pray I can make it to Sunday!
I think I can.... I think I can.... I think I can....
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Her crib also turns into a full size headboard but I think she will have a twin bed next using the headboard that matches her pretty dresser. By then Mason will be ready to use the toddler bed. His crib is not convertable.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Are you holding back because you are afriad you would fail at it?
Some people tell you to go for it but why? Is it because they want to see you fail at it or because they want to make sure its not them doing it?
Do you maybe just kind of, just sorta, just maybe alittle bit wanna do it so that you can feel like you are "somebody" more than just who you are?
Than other times you are thinking oh what would that one group of people think though if I did do it?
Would they laugh at me?
Would I even get the votes?
Oh what to do. My hubby said "no" but maybe just maybe he doesn't see it from where I stand.
Oh maybe someday I will go into details. But for now I am just going to hold back.
I am going to fight this feeling I have and make sure that there is no reason to fail and for sure no reason for anyone to laugh at me.
Yesterday when I got Maddison up from nap there was POOP everywhere. It stunk and it was a huge mess. Thankfully hubby walked in the door right at this time so I could yell for him to get me some wet wipes. I cleaned Maddison's hands up and then realized the only way to clean up this BLOW OUT of a mess was to stick her in the tub. She took a nice warm bath and got some clean clothes on. Her crib got a new sheet and one full of POOP went in the trash.
Now I am helping a daycare child learn to use the potty. She was 2 in August and I felt she was ready a few weeks ago to start wearing pretty little girly panties. So we were going to start last Tuesday but this little one developed a pooping problem. She wouldn't go. So that turned into tummy aches. Which now has turned into a OVER LOAD of POOP. Yes, I said POOP.
Today I put her in her little girly panties and told her to tell me when she had to go potty. She had a dirty diaper for her mom this morning and she had gone yesterday for me. So both mom and I felt it was a go. She's been wearing undies at home some. She is only wet a few times a week when she wakes up from her nap. She is staying dry all day and using the potty.
Wow we were so wrong. She POOPED. She didn't tell me. I didn't smell it. I told her to go potty and went into the kitchen to make Mason a bottle. I came back to find her butt naked in my bathroom.
My bathroom was full of POOP. She had it everywhere. In the matter of like 1 wopping minute she had it on her clothes, the floor, the side of the toilet, side of the tub. You name it, it was covered in POOP.
I walked into the hallway to put Mason on the rug. I counted to 5. I knew if I didn't do that I was going to explode. Went back into the bathroom and put the girl in the tub. There was no way around giving her a bath. Then while she enjoyed a warm bath I cleaned up POOP.
Yes, I said POOP!
Now I must go because I think Maddison just POOPED!
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Monday, February 8, 2010
I think it will be alot of fun when Faith and Mason get a little older and can run around and play! Maddison had never wore the jacket she has on in this picture but since Faith had one on I got Maddison to wear hers! Maddison would throw a fit when I tried to put this on her but she wore it all day on Sunday!
Faith's mom and dad came Sunday morning to pick her up. Then somehow at the last minute we decided to go meet Grandma and Grandpa for lunch before they had to go to a funeral.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Jade reading her book for the new 2nd grade book club she is in!
Friday, February 5, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
The calls are coming in and the kids are needing care. Some of the hours are not the greatest but they are doable. I have 5 kids enrolled now! A few of them are part-time. So I only have 2 part-time openings and possibly one full time opening! I actually had to turn a family down today when they called because they needed 2 full time spots. I have no idea where all these families are coming from and why they weren't here 2 months ago but now is better than not at all!
I do need to thank everyone who told me to stick it out and give it time. Its not always the easiest thing to hear when it comes down to the fact this is my job, my source of income. No income means no money to pay bills. Its been a rocky few months but it looks like things will be getting busy again around here.
I did extend my hours to get some of these kids but the best part about that is I am still home with my kids! I don't have to go to work in the evening and worry about hubby giving all the kids a bath or finishing the laundry and doing homework.
Today life in the Wynn house is good! Well I do have a headache though.
Jade will celebrate her 8th birthday on Friday. So hard to believe she was just a few months shy of turning 3 when I met her. She did not like me! Its been a great few years. I think she likes me now. Well as much as any kid can like their mother!
Saturday I have daycare with 4 daycare kids! Its ok because 4 kids makes it worth my time. None of them will get here until at least 10:30am and everyone will be gone by 6:30pm! Yes, that means 8 kids counting mine! Hubby also has overtime!
We are having a young over-night guest on Saturday night! She is a cutie. Bet you want to know who it is! Well you will have to come back this weekend and find out! And if you know don't spoil it and tell everyone else!
Monday, February 1, 2010
Only bad part is we drove to get there. A long long drive.
I wish we lived closer to this place. Such a great place for winter time when its so cold outside.