My children are spoiled!

I took this picture of Rose about 25 minutes ago. She has decided she wants to go to a hotel for 3 nights and go swimming. She packed a swim suit, her blanket (can't forget that smelly old thing), a small dinosaur book, her nightgown and pants for underneath (we make her wear pants under it right now because she won't keep covered at night), and a pair of underwear! She tells me she wants to go now. Well right after I took the picture Hubby called. Of course Rose is so spoiled. I tell him what she was doing and he says "Oh I suppose we can go tonight". I said "We'll see". It so much work to pack everything up.



Oh I am so excited Sweet Baby Girl is learning knew things but I am also so sad. That means she is growing up. Way too fast. She has started to learn how to blow kisses. Its so funny though. She more so licks her hand! But she is trying to blow a kiss!

We didn't get outside as much as I would have liked this winter. We tried to go out in the afternoon after the daycare infant would leave for the day. Sweet Baby Girl would be stuck inside with Daddy. Well now that she has gotten alittle older she wants to outside too. The other day was still a bit chilly and there wasn't really anywhere for her play and not get cold. Daddy brought her in the porch to look out the window and when he took her back into the house she got so mad. She started screaming!

Yesterday was finally nice enough that she was able to come outside with us and have something to do. She loved it! She sat on the little red and blue car and she even made noises. The bigger kids got to have an Easter egg hunt and she loved holding eggs and watching the kids run around!

Back to work!!

So my Hubby just called that they will no longer get Fridays off starting next week. Ok that is great. He can drive a person nuts being home all day. He walks around all day telling me how bored he is. So thankfully he goes back to working 5 days a week! However it might be temporary they told him.

Now next Friday just happens to be April 17, 2009. If you have a good memory that is the day of my dates! My 1st date is with the Ultrasound tech. and the second was to be with my Hubby for lunch. So we had to change the appt. from 10am until 11am and Hubby will have to take a half day at work. So all in all it will work out but of course all days to go back to work.

Update

Well my appt. went better than I thought it would. My doctor basically said that symptoms I had with Sweet Baby Girl could also happen this time. Like the swollen ankles. She said that the negative thing about it is they usually happen sooner. Her solution was to rest my legs when I can. She also said if I wanted I can try a support sock. That is basically like a nylon. My doctor said she wore them when she was pregnant back in the day! However I am not sure I want to be outside this summer wearing capris and nylons but we'll see. I went up to bed last night at 8pm instead of 10pm! So I was able to rest my legs. My legs where really hurting yesterday but I am hoping it was only because I was thinking about them and was nervous for my doctor visit.

The only not so good news at my appt. was she said something about 18 weeks and 5 days along. I am hoping she was just looking at the wrong thing because my calender says 20 weeks! I will wait and see on the 17th what my ultrasound shows for my due date.

MY BIG BELLY!

I can not believe I am actually sharing these pictures with my wonderful readers. But if you look at the first picture you can see how large I got when i was pregnant with Sweet Baby Girl. I am the one in the middle of course (along with my sister and her sister-in-law who I went to school with)! This was taken at my baby shower and I was well over 20 weeks! I must have been about 30 weeks. Wow did my face get chubby! Now take a look at the second picture. I am just 20 weeks and look at how big I already am. You would think I was having quads or something! Rose was my photo lady! She did pretty good for being 5 years old.

20 Weeks!

A baby was born! I am so excited! I found out this morning my friend from high school had a baby boy on April 1st! She hadn't told anyone what they were expecting so I was starting to go a bit crazy waiting to find out!

On another note- I am 20 weeks pregnant today! So I am half way there. I am excited and also nervous. Last night I went to take a bubble bath and I noticed my ankles have turned ugly. They were very swollen. They did this with Sweet Baby Girl but I don't think it was until about 30 weeks. That is also when I had orders from my Doctor to take it easy and put my feet up all day. I have a doctors apt. this afternoon and I am really hoping for the best. There are a few changes I can make during the day to accommodate but I can not take 20 weeks off. I am a mother. We do not get days off! The daycare kids love playing doctor so I can lay on the couch and be the sick one and they won't know I have to be lazy! And who knows maybe the doctor won't see concern yet.

Please pray for my ankles. Pray that they don't scare my doctor right out of the exam room. They are pretty ugly right now!

To me its depressing...

When I started daycare I never thought about how I would feel when I had my own children and would want to do special things with just them. It never crossed my mind it would happen. I always thought the best benefit would be staying home with them and being the one to care for them. Not having to let someone else raise my kids. My mom did daycare until I was in 3rd grade. I wanted to be home with my kids. I still do. I ended up with 3 kids in one years time and its now hitting me that I am home with my kids and I love that part but its also hitting me that we are STUCK home. Not because there aren't things to do but because I have too many kids to go anywhere. This week its really really bothering me. I need to fix this problem and I so do not know how. I have to work that is not to be questioned. But I also want my kids to be able to do fun things. I want to be able to take Rose to preschool when she cries because the kid is mean to her on the bus. I can't though because I have a houseful of other kids who need my attention. Sadly m child's needs couldn't come first and on the bus she went with a note to the driver that the mean kids shouldn't be allowed to sit by her (it was worded very nicely).

We got our local summer recreation booklet in the mail and there is something in it I would like each of my kids to do. But because of different ages they are at different times/ different days of the week. I can't get them there. One is a toddler class I would so love to take with my Sweet Baby Girl. The prices are actually reasonable. But its once a week for 6 weeks. If I hire a sub it would cost me $120 extra to take the class. That is also only if I leave at the last minute and walk out as its ending so I don't go over 2 hours a time for the sub. This is depressing me terribly. That wouldn't include the cost of the classes for each one of the girls or a sub for my daycare to get the other two girls to their event. So in the end it would cost me a fortune.

I am trying hard to remind myself that I could be sitting in a small office with no windows and be making alot of money but it wouldn't solve my problem. My kids would be stuck at daycare and still wouldn't be able to attend special things. I could have become a lawyer with too much work to do and pay a nanny to take care of my children. But then I would probably have more problems to think about.

I know there are things I can do with my children on the weekends but that doesn't solve the fact that Toddler Fun, Soccer and Day Camp are during the week and during the day. To me its depressing I can not do these things with my children.

I know in the end I need to be thankful for the time I do get with them and for the things we do get to do. Its just in the back of mind this week what we miss out on. To me its depressing.

Brother T

My brother T seems to have found himself a girlfriend! It doesn't seem possible he's old enough to date. I must really be getting old if my little brother has a girlfriend.

He called me on Sunday to tell me he met this girl. I had already kind of heard but I played cool and I asked him if he met a girl from Texas. He had just gotten back from Texas Saturday night! He told me the story about how they met right before he left. He also told me this girl isn't high maintenance! Now if you know my brother you would know that he isn't looking for no city girl who gets their nails painted every week. He wants a farm girl and it sounds like that is what he found! He made sure to tell me she even knows how to milk cows (great now that he just sold all his)!

He also had a job interview/ job shadow deal yesterday so hopefully that went well.

We love you Brother T and hope it all works out!

PS sorry about the picture. Its all I could find. I stole it from his facebook page!